Out of Order!

Yes, I am out of order these days. I am out of my physical as well as mental order. I don’t know why. I think it is because I have nothing to think about these days and it is said ,”An empty mind is a house of the devil.”

I have been suffering so much these days. I don’t have a good routine. I wake up whenever I want, I sleep whenever I want – be it the day time or night, I just keep on using Internet, and my most favorite timepass -TV- is also away from me these days. These days are my summer vacations. It has been 1 and a 1/2 months since the new academic session has started and still I have not started with my self studies. I have given my Board Exams one and a half month before and I decided I would relax for sometime and then start again for class 11th with full and fresh energy.

But I failed to regain that energy, that consciousness, that sound-mind, that ready-to-work behaviour. I don’t know why.

All my classmates and friends have already started to prepare for 11th, 12th and other competitive exams.

And I am still there where I was 1 and a 1/2 months before.

I am ambitious. I think about my future. I have pretty well decided and defined what I want to do in future and when. But I fail to execute. How can I start to execute my plans if my mind is not ready. My mind needs something to occupy it- but that occupation should not be of thoughts- that occupation should be the ‘processing’ required to complete various tasks. And then surely I would be ‘in the order’.

But still I wonder HOW?

I know everything about me coz I have analysed things a lot (more than required).

But I am still there, where I was 1 and a 1/2 months before.

In the hope of ‘my’ revival !



Today’s Account

So, now I have really got addicted to blogging.2836828090_67d4900ab3_o

It’s really an awesome thing to do. Knowing peeps from around the world, knowing their life, interacting with them, expressing yourself, its all so much fun……. More than fun its ‘feeling light’ in this so exhausting world.

I have read a few blogs today and am quite impressed with and addicted to them.

So much ‘blogging’ is exciting to me that to make people attend to my blog, I have posted so manblogging-employees1y times today.

So, from day after tomorrow, that is from 23rd March, our new session is going to start….. Yay,   I am going to 11th… I will study MY subjects. But this time I am not so excited the way I used to be in earlier classes. Don’t know why?

But most probably, the reason behind this can be……….. so early reopening of school, because day before yesterday only we have finished our 10th Board exams……. and day after tomorrow is our reopening………

Well, today it was a nice day. But sometimes its really important to let people go away from you no matter how important they are. Coz, if u don’t do so, you become obsessed with them and go mad, ultimately making out a fool out of yourself in front of everybody.

Obsession, I think is one of the biggest ailments……

And sometimes people are so shameless that they forget all their ethics and don’t have a bit of morality in them, that they respond to your frequent calls for a simple conversation.

When you and your friend meet and you don’t have any topic to talk upon, realise that their is something really wrong.

My First Post on WordPress

And so I start with my first post.

Earlier in the afternoon I had created my blog. From the past few weeks I was constantly thinking of starting to write again. I had many many issues on which I had decided to write. But as I created the blog and was about to write my first post, I got just blank. May be, because of exhaustion…..

Ya, today my Board exams ended. It was English Communicative today. It went very well.

And maybe, because of that exhaustion, I could not think of anything to write in my first post.

From the past few weeks, I had been so eager to write my blog and also eager that people read and respond my writings. I was very eager, excited, so much I can’t explain you. But, as my Boards were on, I could not dare to even jot down a single word to write in the blog. I decided, as soon as the exams will be over , I will start expressing my heart out.

And so I am here with this blog. “DesireToExpress”. Yes, desire to express. More than anything else, it is just my desire to express myself, on whatever topic it may be. I want to express my views and share them with others on the topics of common interest and know people from around the world. I want to know others views on some topics and enhance my understanding in that.

There are so many crucial social, economic, political and natural issues churning up around the world and if we, the youngsters don’t discuss it and take actions, then who else will?

Our ancestors have done enough to quench our thirst. Now, we are pacified with everything we “have”- all our luxuries.  But what we don’t have is real peace, real equality, real progress, real development and a real humanity.

Well, its still the first post. I just wanted to introduce all of you to my blog.

I ,really, with the depth  of my heart, want to bring out to others what I see, I feel, I act and what I ignore, the things which seem to me of utmost importance and the things which immediately need an apt solution…..