Secret Superstar!

Hi!

Hope you’re having a wonderful day. A few weeks back, I watched a movie called ‘Secret Superstar’. It’s about a 14 year old girl Insia who aspires to be a famous singer. The movie is about her and her mom’s journey as they move on in their restricted lives; each day seeing Insia in place of one of those singers whose song has hit high in the music charts or imagining her to win music awards. This girl has a strict father who doesn’t like her being involved in music. So, keeping her identity a secret, wearing a veil,  she starts a Youtube Channel with the name ‘Secret Superstar’ and becomes instantly famous. Her life changes after that.

Well, I had been interested in this movie since the day I watched its trailer for the first time, before the start of the film Dangal. For me, the concept of an Internet Sensation  being shown in a movie, was really exciting. I wanted to see how this adventurous, miraculous and life-changing world of Internet was portrayed in the movie.

 

When the time of release of this film arrived, I was skeptical of watching this film. I don’t know why. Maybe because I had been busy and didn’t want to spend ‘3 hrs’ watching a film. Maybe because the promotions and everything else about the movie except the initial trailer didn’t intrigue me. But then one day, I saw a song from this film. The song was ‘Sexy Baliye’. I had avoided watching this video whenever it came on TV for several days. But one day I just thought , ‘”Let”s see it once, what it is!”. I saw. And then I started guessing what would be the exact story of the film. For those of you who don’t know, in this song the music director Shakti Kumar (played by Aamir Khan) is seen dancing with very weird steps. And this song is kind of a parody of Insia’s most popular song ‘Main Nachdi Phiran’. So, I thought that the way there there are some Youtube channels whose ultimate aim is to mock other Youtubers, the same way this Shakti Kumar is trying to make fun of Insia and her songs. And I judged this film to be about Insia’s online presence and the problems she faces in the virtual world to maintain her popularity. I had thought the film to be about how delightful it feels to have an online presence and have a huge fan base there.

 

But but… My predictions failed. And this film came out to be of a completely different concept.  Of course, it showed about this Youtube thing and all, but this film ended with the line:

“To all the mothers and their motherhood….”

So, you all can guess what this film was about. Yes, it was about the bond that every mother shares with her child. It is about all those things that a mother does going out of her way.

 

I don’t wanna make you all emotional by starting to write on this topic, but I do want to say about the mother in the movie. Personally, I felt that the mother’s character was the strongest, and the best written character in the movie. The movie’s plot was not THAT great. The ending was rather a little disappointing for me. But, the best thing about this movie was the role of mother. The little instances in the movie where they show the mother and daughter spending time together, eating together, discussing their problems and possible solutions, taking care of each other, etc. etc. are just fantastically portrayed. The way the girl scolds her mother all the time for not taking a stand for herself and telling her plans to leave her father, it’s all too good. The way the girl shares the joy of getting a good response on internet, the way both of them watch award shows together, all these things are too too sweet. In fact her mother was the one who devised a plan to safely create her online presence.

 

Meher Vij, the actress who played the role of Insia’s mother – I have become a big big fan of her as an actor. I could connect to the mother so so well and I loved her on screen. She was so so sweet in the film. And Meher and Zaira (who plays Insia) share an amazing chemistry between them. I could see a real mother-daughter relationship in them. I wish the internet world would have been explored more in the film. But as I said, this whole film came out to be a different one. And it came out to be a good one. I can’t explain more how good the movie has been in showing the mother-daughter relationship.

 

When I came out from the theatre, I was sure I didn’t like the movie that much. And it was just a normal film for me, that turned out a little good. And I loved the role of mother. And I didn’t feel it was THAT emotional for me.

 

But as days passed, I realised how much I loved the mother-daughter part. Today, I was watching a video ‘The Making of Meri Pyaari Ammi’ (My Dear Mom). And I don’t know how the hell tears welled up in my eyes. All this didn’t make me that emotional in the theatre. But today, it did; and for no reason. I think it was because, as I saw this video I started recalling all the amazing moments in the film. And my eyes were wet now. And then Meher started speaking in the video about her experience while portraying this role with a choked voice. Damn, now I was moved by this movie. And it’s become one of my favourites.

 

At the end I just wanna say that I want that Internet based movie too that I had been hoping for, for too long ! :/

 

Well, if you guys too have a Youtube channel, please feel free to drop the link below in the Comments section. I would love to see your videos!

Good Day!

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Hello!

Hello Everyone!

It’s been so long, so so long…. To dare to write after such a long time makes me feel the presence of a strange knot in my heart for a very short duration, but with a very strong impact. Today is Dussehra. I just randomly saw the video of my last performance in my school. And unfortunately, I hold some regrets. Regrets! I wish they weren’t there. But they are there, very significant. I just realised that my performance could have been much much better if I had taken better decisions. Then I saw another group’s performance and realised sometimes you need to be selfish to bring out the best. I realised it is okay not to be kind sometimes. But heart doesn’t allow to do so. And I end up being emotional and not taking practical decisions. I regret not giving a single performance in which I shined like a dancing star. Not one single performance, in which I showed my true potential and let myself dance free. I didn’t showcase the true dancer in me, and now I can never, never again in front of those teachers who loved me too much, who had seen me grow from a pre-primary student to a student graduating the high-school.

 

And I  just realised that it feels so great to let my thoughts free on my blog. I was apprehensive of writing again, for writing demands digging into the deepest parts of our heart that hold painful secrets. But the prize is golden. It feels really great to let all the things out.

 

Hope you are all doing well. !

Enjoy your day!

With Love

-Sheetal

Kill Me !

Kill me as soon as you can

In any way you can

Coz I am a coward

As I can’t survive

As I’m a coward

I cannot end my life.

 

Throat is choked

Each day

Sometimes there’s a reason

Sometimes there’s none.

 

All I’m asking you to do

is to kill me soon

I’m not asking for any favours

to add in my life sweet flavours.

All I’m asking you to do

is to kill me soon

I’ve done a big mistake

To be good & right always

And I can’t change my ways

I just wanna leave this space !

I begged.

Just an awesome piece of writing! The word needs to be spread to bring sensitivity.

I would also like to request you all to watch Fatmagul – a Turkish series that highlights the same issue and shows how the woman strongly fights against this evil and starts her life afresh.

If you would like you can also watch its official Hindi remake titled ‘Kya Qusoor Hai Amla Ka? ” aired on Star Plus.

Trust me – this is th story you need to see!

Rasgulla.

Walking, on paths unknown.
Right there you were,
In a group of three,
Waiting.

As I walked,
I passed by your words,
This night, a night to remember.

You asked politely,
If you could press my boobs,
An appetite you wished for,
Only to thirst me of the thing,
That made life so beautiful.

My clevage being watched,
By 6 eyes,
On a road so lonely.

Shivers ran down,
And so did your eyes,
As you spanked my ass,
Only to mark the beginning.

I went away,
You followed,
I told you not to,
You did.

With a leap,
You grabbed my hand,
I shouted, you smiled.
Surrounded I was now.

I slapped you,
I lied bleeding now,
With blood near the lips.

I was dragged by my hair,
Howling for mercy,
But you didn’t, care.
Smiling,
I was taken,
To the places so dark,
I wish I would have…

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2nd Blog Anniversary

It’s been 2 years now… A good span of time! I love this place. It was two years ago that I started this blog, the day my Board Exams got over. And today, I had almost forgotten that today is the day- the special day, because I was busy preparing for another Board Exam tomorrow.

During these 2 years, a LOT has changed. Not just the physical suuroundings and me ageing physically, but a big inner transformation. There are also many important things in my life that remain absolutely same- some problems that don’t wanna leave me. But these two- three years of my life, I will remember with all its intricacies, with every minute detail, about how my Desire To Express my innermost feelings led me to start this blog; about how I came close to a side of Internet that led me to an awakening- to know myself more; about how I found out my passion; about how I started sitting at the window that opens a vast and amazingly beautiful world!

But unfortunately,the past year in this blog was not SO good, as I wasn’t able to devote my time here. But hopefully, after my exams I would be able to resume this journey full-fledgedly.

Dear Readers and co-bloggers,

Thank you for building such a beautiful place. It’s because of all of you guys! Each one of you all have contributed to build this amazing place. I hope we keep growing together… Years later we will have lots of stories of online friendship, support and inspiration to tell!

 

I would gladly like to tell you all that one of my dearest friends has joined this blog community. This is her blog –Urge To Write.

I hope you guys will like her writing as well. She writes amazing poems. Go check them out!

 

Thank You All!

Love

-Sheetal

 

 

An Incomplete Book

This is so damn good…. Every bit of it…. EVERY SINGLE WORD. Just…… heart wrenching, yet optimistic….

SouL SpeakS

          Everyone has a story and every story has a happy ending, but not every story has an end, some are left incomplete. This story was also left incomplete, it was left incomplete because, she was not able to understand and he was not able to explain. They never knew that they are walking on an incomplete road which was under construction and soon their journey would come to an end and their story would remain incomplete.

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Extraordinary Aura Of The Seemingly Ordinary

I don’t know at all, whether I would be able to put up my thoughts clearly in this post. I really don’t know, whether you will get what I am trying to say, coz I myself am quite unclear about it and too much messed up right now. It is something that I have been feeling for quite along time…I don’t know if you will think this as an excuse, as an escape from reality, because even I doubt myself sometimes that I am just making an excuse…

So, let me start. Teenage… most of the readers of this post might be in that age… because we have a sort of circle made up on the blogosphere. Thus, all of us know what it is to be a teenager in the 21st Century… I think most of you might agree to me when I say that Teenage is a phase of emotional turmoil. But, if it gets suffocating, then what? I don’t know where all this discussion is leading me to. But I just wanna go with the flow of my thoughts right now.

Honestly, recently, I have discovered, that almost every other batchmate, every other person who is of my age, has some or the other  kind of emotional/mental problem. People who seem ordinary/average are in fact the greatest conquerors of fear, failures,etc. I have observed that people whom people thought were like nobodies( nobodies in the sense that – they had no special qualities or hobbies) suddenly started seeming so brave and heroic to me. That quiet, seemingly arrogant girl, sitting there busy completing her assignments on time, must have been going through a lot of responsibilities at home. That boy, who gets average marks, but has an idea about every concept and tries to answer, though may not always be correct, might be running errands at home, might be working like that man of the house. The most lovable, always laughing person might be sitting crying when alone. Every other teen out there has faced/is facing a lot of problems daily. But no one tries to understand them. Because mental well-being is not the prime concern of anybody at this age. Even friends can’t understand each other’s real mental state. Honestly, I myself got to know about some of my friend’s problems just now! When we have been friends for pretty good time.

Especially in the Indian scenario, during high school/ senior secondary school, most of us are very very tensed, stressed, depressed, under-confident, and what not! All are able to see and comment on how ‘out of hand’ we have gone as teens. All are able to see what all wrong we do. But nobody, really nobody sees how hard it has been to even stand in front of you all. You would be amazed to know as an adult, how deep our emotions have been as teenagers and how easily we get affected by everything. We do analyse ourselves and we do know ourselves. We are not all careless brats. Even the seemingly careless brats have great plans already made up.And when you see those careless brats doing great in school with awesome level of confidence, and amazing amount of positivity, you start questioning yourself whether you were wrong in being right, mature, careful and perfect in each and every step- the things that have drained you off of your energy now. Why are you not able to perform that well or why you are not able to give your best inspite of all the sacrifices, all the temptations you gave up to be a good student and a good child. You start thinking, why they can hangout, joke around, be aggresive, take part in all the other activities, watch movies, have very good relationships- whether friendship or romantic, but still can give their focus and still make persistent efforts to achieve their dreams. These are the ones who make the perfect balance in everything, these are the seemingly average students as most people term them as. But they are not! They have been through many ups and downs, ran to their friends at the emergency hours, faced being compared with the so called ‘bests’, heard scoldings for hanging out and wasting time, being shouted at to study, worked damn damn hard to reach that desired level of marks. These are the things that have made them strong now. Now, they can face anything. Just because they have went through them during the foundation years of their lives.

 

What about the extremes? People who are either at the top or very low in performance. What about them? The only difference is that after school life they might face problems which start showing up during the last years of school. Why? Because all throughout their school they could not become experienced in handling different situations. Issues related to Confidence, Interpersonal skills, Relationships, Maintaining a perfect balance between Personal and Professional life might show up. Those at top were always praised, those at bottom were never encouraged. So, when suddenly Life throws them challenges of entering a new phase after school, they struggle!

 

This might not be true for all. These are just the things that I have observed around me. These are the things that have concerned me and messed me.