Shut Down

I shut down myself from people

Saying , need to control myself

To become less expressive

And not bother anybody

To give time to myself

And not to worldly issues

To focus on things worthy

And not on friends or foes.

 

Realised now I stopped sharing

Things that once went to someone’s ears

They knew almost everything about me

And I made sure they knew

Realised now those ears are nowhere near

Those which not just heard events

But feelings and my heart’s vents

And the result is what now

Mouth has become a chatterbox

Speaking all the bllsht

And expecting people to listen

Speaking till they put their eyes away

Or doing a hmm hmm in irritation,

hoping I would stop soon

Their facial expressions

Giving a pang to this goon…

 

Why this sudden expressive nature?

Coz I have sent all those away

Who used to know my heart’s way

And heart has to speak

And needs someone to take its peak

 

But who is to blame but me !

I sent away my near and dear ones

Leaving just me, my thoughts and nobody !…

 

 

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Saamne na sahi…
Khwaabon mein hai tumhari maujoodgi
Pal bana na sakoon saath tumhare
Par yaadon mein hai tumhari deewangi
Aur kuchh na sahi
Bas dil de baithe hain
Izhaar kar nahi sakte kabhi
Par naam roz liya karte hain…
Ab to aadat si hai humko aise jeene mein
Yaadon ke sahare kitni raatein humne bitayi hain
Zindagi ke lamho ki tarah
Wo haseen sapne bhi yaad hain
Jinme meherbaani se kabhi
tumne dastak di hai
Aakhir tumse judi har cheez
Hai humein behadd azeez

Tum bin itni veeraan hai zindagi
Ki sirf tumhara naam lena hi sukoon de deta hai..
Kya hai yeh, kyun hai yeh
Kya khabar, haan magar
Jo bhi hai
Bada achha lagta hai..
Saalon beetne par bhi
Mohabbat qayam rahe
To faqr hota hai.

 

Kashmkash

Har pal… kahe kyun ye mujhse…
Ek aawaaz doon tumhe..
Ek khat.. likh doon tumhe..
Ek paigaam chhod jaaun tumhe…
Ek salaam ..keh doon tumhe..
Bas ek baar baat ho tumse…

Har pal… kahe kyun ye mujhse..
Pal nahi hain ab aur tumhare paas..
Jo bhi hain dil ke khaas
Khol do unhe apne dil ke haseen raaz..
Bas ek baar… bichhde yaar..
Jo ki hai anjaan
Bhej do use
Chaahat ka paigaam
Keh do use
Apne gehre jazbaat..
Reh na jaye ve ankahe
Alvida ka waqt na aa jaye, bina salaam kahe…

Bas ek baar…
Sharm-o-haya chhod ke
Imaan ko darkinar karke
Guroor ko andekha karke
Duniya ko bhool karke
Keh do unhe
Dil mein hai kya
Zindagi ka hissa bana lo unhe phir se..
zindagi ho na jaye zaaya.

Har pal.. kahe kyun ye mujhse
Himmat to dikhao
Ek baar keh ke to dekho
Shayad qismat ho saath tumhare
Shayad unke dil mein bhi
Ho tumhari yaadein
Shayad intezaar unhe bhi ho tumhara
Shayad kehne ko tumse,unka jee machala jaa raha..

Har pal.. dil ghabra jaye
Kya hoga agar wo jawaab na de paye..
Agar unhe hum yaad nahin..
Agar koi mayne na rakhe unhe humari maujoodgi.
Kya hoga agar hum unka waqt barbaad karein
Agar humse bhi zaroori ho unke naye naate
Agar bhool chuke ho hume sadiyon pehle..
Kya hoga agar aisa hua?
Kya iss taaze dard ko tum seh paoge?
Pehle hi zakhmon ko bharte hue..
Itna waqt hai beet chuka
Kya phir se malham lagane ka
Sabr rakh paoge..?
Itna waqt kya tum
phir se de paoge?

Kya hoga agar
Tumhari wapasi unhe taqleef de…
Agar tum purane dard ..yaad dila do unhe
Mushkil se bhoola ho unhone jinhe
Agar saath tumhara ho kamzor karta unhe
Agar gairmaujoodgi ne tumhari sayana bana diya unhe
Wapas jaakar sab tabah kar doge?
Mushkil se jo khatm kiya, yun hi phir shuru kar doge?

Itna aasan nahi aana aur chale jana
Chale jaana aur aana
Tamasha nahi ye pyaar
Par tamasha bana diya tumne
Khel nahi ye pyaar
Par khel bana diya tumne
Kyunki
Qismat ke bharose chhod diya
Phir bhi aas lagakar intezaar kiya..
Aur karte aa rahe ho
Aur karte rahoge
Intezaar jiska kar rahe ho
Wo shayad kabhi na aaye..
Phir bhi tum dheet ho..
Aas lagakar intezaar karoge
Baithe rahoge
Qismat par chhodoge..
Aas lagakar baithoge
Aur intezaar karoge…
Intezaar karoge
Zindagi barbaad karoge..
Aur intezaar karoge…

Har pal… kahega tumse
Intezaar ki ghadi khatm
Ab keh hi do unse..
Zindagi ko hain baaki din chaar
Ye din aayenge na baar baar
Keh do yahi hai mauka-e-izhaar
Bas ek khat
Likh do ek baar…

Har baar… dil darega kahega
Kya hoga agar hui ye aakhri baat
Kya hoga agar hui ye aakhri mulaqaat
Kya iss aakhri milan ko mukammal kar paoge?
Nahi kar paye to zindagi bhar rakhna malaal !