Struggle

Life becomes miserable

at one point of time

In spite of all the happiness outside

it’s sheer loneliness inside.

 

You feel

“you are at your lowest point,

you can’t go beneath that,

so all there’s left

is just to rise

rise & rise & walk up and high

until you reach your set goal.”

It is a hope

which you have got instilled in your heart.

You are confident throughout

that in spite of all the odds out here

you will come up as a strong person.

You even start stepping forward to that way

but the result is only to your dismay

You instantly realise then,

all this time you had been showing

off of you, which is not at all you

All this time, you felt empty inside

but had created a group of friends around you.

 

You try to work for

what you want to achieve

but a sudden random incident from the past

throws water over all your hard attempts.

You feel again and realise

how broken you are

unable to devote yourself

to anyone completely.

 

There comes a time

when you can’t even cry at bad times.

But there also comes a time

when you try to find excuse to cry

just coz all this time

you had been accumulating your tears

and they had to come out some day.

So, they come unexpectedly sometimes

with no reason, when it is not a bad time!

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I am grateful to you

Date: 20th Feb’2016

This life is so strange. This world is so weird. Sometimes, the people whom you least expect from, give the best happiness in an awful time. A call from a long lost friend made my day so good, but at the same time made me so sad. Now, I can’t help but keep on thinking of the golden memories of the past which seem far today, which are so precious to me. The past of any person always seems so beautiful. And in teen life, it seems like a mirage, amidst the search for an oasis in our deserted lives. My aunt had once said, ” Don’t be so emotional, it will make things difficult for you.” Guess she is right. Why can’t I be practical? Even the small events trigger my memory and I, sit with a heavy heart, longing for those days to come back.

 

Sometimes, you don’t realise anything unless someone points it out to you. That friend said me, “Yaar, those days in Francis were the best days.” Then I realised, how good days I have spent and am still spending here. No bunking of classes, no revolutionary rule-breaking, but still that enjoyment; life was so good then.

 

But today, I fear to go back to my memories to live them again. I fear, I will get lost in them again. But that doesn’t mean I’ve stoppped being nostalgic completely. At times, they do haunt me. People from the past come to my dreams out of nowhere, so often. There are many people whom I will not tag as my Best Friends, nor will they, but still they all have played such an important role in my life, that I can never forget them in my wildest dreams.

 

I thank you all my friends (my classmates and all other schoolmates) from the past and the present as well, for sharing such beautiful moments of life with me!

 

It’s not important that those people remain your friends for life, but every single moment that you enjoyed with someone- known or unknown, important to you or not, that each moment is a bliss and that is what we call the true gift of life.

 

This is why humans are social animals. This is why humans and all other living beings have emotions. No matter how practical we become in life, our emotions are the driving force of our behaviour. These emotions are our topmost priority. And these emotions are all what really matter to us!

Does True Love Happen In Teenage?

I had decided not to write on such topics on which every teen feels helpless.

 

But, one of my friends asked me to write on this topic and so I thought, I should go for it now.

 

 


Most of the grown-ups may call love in teenage –“Baby Love”-childish, with no maturity, just fun, just attraction and not more.

 

A teen may feel my love is the only true love in this world. It might not have happened truly to others at this age, but I am lucky to experience it so early.

 

Fellow-mates may think, the other couple is just faking. But a close friend says- “I have never seen so loving couple other than yours”.

 

So many perspectives. But which one is true? Even if love is true, is it fine to have it at this age?

 

I say it is never wrong to love a fellow-being. I say, yes true love happens at teenage- maybe not with all- but with most of us- as the world exists only with love. Had there been no love, no feelings between people, people would have killed each other and would have thus killed human existence.

 

True love does exist in teenage coz initially, every teen who thinks to be in love is very mad for their love, cares the most for her/him, observes every behavior of him/her, appreciates every good thing about her/him, complains or warns him/her if he/she does something wrong, makes him/her feel special, no matter what others say about their love, they believe only when they themselves see or feel it, they help each other in studies, they are the happiest in their love’s success, give the thoughts of their love equal importance.

 

Is this not what we call selfless true love?

 

Yes, we do call it.

 

According to me, a relationship can be summed up as – “An Official Agreement to be able to care for each other even if the other doesn’t want to be cared for.”

 

But why grown-ups feel teenage love is immature and just a so-called Baby Love, although they themselves have gone through it?

 

It is because as we grow up while still in our teenage, our priorities change, even if we don’t want to.

 

We have to really really focus on our studies, our career, our future. Teen mind is very conscious of what others think about them. So teens strive to prove themselves in front of others – whether it may be in sports, education, in front of family and teachers or maybe they strive to prove themselves in being a fashionista in front of friends.

 

Grown-ups believe it or not, teens are surely conscious about what they have to do in life and how.

 

Slowly and gradually, the career-driven thoughts or so-called “I’ll prove myself” thoughts or sometimes even “I’m the best” thoughts get really concentrated in your already saturated mind.

 

Aspects of teen life – “ego, priority change, mental instability, pressure, reputation consciousness” are the ones which kill the body where true love resides ( the outer appearance of true love).

Since, we all know , energy can neither be created nor be destroyed, thus the energy which used to run the body of true love still exists even if the outer appearance of true love (its body- your actions, your behavior, care,joy,smiles,etc. etc. for your love) ceases to exist.

 

What is left is an abstract energy- the true love. Since its physical container destroyed and the residue is abstract, it can no longer be accessed by the person himself since it can no longer be touched or seen or heard by the person.

 

Thus, it often remains out of sight. But sometimes occasionally, at rare times, its feeling may arise.

 

It is abstract, it can be felt.

 

True love exists. Initially, complete- as a body and a soul. Then, just as a soul- unseen, unheard, untouchable, ignored, subdued, but still it is there in us.

-Phantom!